My whole goal this year is to be completely happy. I want to look at life in a positive manner....WEEEEEELLLLLL that's REALLY hard when you're day was as crappy as mine.
1. I'm taking Psychology, A-hour....at 6:45 am. How in the world is person suppose to function that early, while taking a college level class?!! And I do not (and I repeat) DO NOT understand anything...at all. My teacher frustrates me, I fail every test and quiz because the teacher tells us there is a quiz/test either; That day, the next day or in 5 minutes. And it's the first time we ever hear of this test.
2. So this is the effect of number one. I have math, 1st hour. And bytheway I hate crying. SOOOO I go to my 1st hour and I want to just breakdown but I can't because people are around me. So I calm down through math and then I go to English, I start thinking about it again and BAM my lip starts quivering and my best friend sees me and I walk faster away. My best friend is a guy and that's like my number one thing that I hate; boys must NEVER EVER NEVER EVER see me cry. Anywho, I go to my English (2nd hour) class and I sit down. But this teacher is really cool and also I just needed to vent. So I ask her if it's "humane" (I didn't use that word...it just sounded cool) for a teacher to give a test that day, the next day or in 5 min...without telling us before (like a week). And she thinks and she is really hesitant, "I can tell you're upset." Good, she's starting to see where I'm at in life....and she says, "Well teachers teach different ways and...well, yeah, that isn't recommended." And she keeps going and I feel kinda bad because when she stops, i say," 'Kay thanks.." incredibly fast and I go sit down. I almost start crying again and I pull out a book...and I take 500 breaths.
Sooooo, yeah. That was my Friday. Sorry for the overload of venting depression-ness. :) :) :)
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